matilda-'s Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- .......... I'm in mourning. He says now that he didn't understand exactly what his connection was with mom until now. It's not exactly what he thought it was... or something like that. He was turned down. Plain and simple. What man isn't going to make up some bullshit to cover it? I told him I'm not angry. I'm not. I'm disappointed in him a little. I thought for sure things would be ok once we got to the end of July and we spent some time together. I thought this was it. Kendall Rose was getting her break. I can't have him near me and not think about the last couple of months. Unforgivable...that's what comes to mind. But no, that's not the right word. I tell myself there's nothing to forgive. But it cut me deep. My feelings for him are still there. What do I do with myself until they finally start to fade? I listened to that song again last night from the Live in Dublin CD. Hearing that song now makes me cry. 08:34 - Tuesday, Jun. 04, 2002 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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